There's a story I like to tell myself whenever I need to cum. In this story I am a young woman, mids, visiting a therapist for the first time. I explain to him that I'm there to try and get help unpacking my sexual trauma. He listens as I tell him my history and I tell him everything. I tell him about my first sexual partner being my father, how he started by touching me between my legs as I sat in his lap for movies, but I never realized there was anything off about it. I tell him about how things changed the summer I was 13 and got my first two piece swimsuit.